Confession . . . it's good for the soul, right?

For the past several months I have been stockpiling - ALOT. My wonderful husband has been on board with this. He likes the thought of having a stockpile "just in case." He also likes the variety of foods we've been having lately. What I have not been doing is following our budget or even watching our checking account. I simply got tired of not seeing the numbers add up. My husband kept saying that as long as we would (eventually) use everything I bought then he saw no problem with it. Well, now there's a problem. Our checking account is severely overdrawn. How did I find this out? I was attempting to purchase some more good deals at Rite Aid when my Visa card wouldn't go through. How embarrasing! The nice manager offered to hold my order until morning. Unfortunately the short fall is so severe that I will not be able to go back to Rite Aid in the morning to purchase my good deals.

The last few times I've gone shopping I've felt a pretty major negative vibe suggesting that perhaps I shouldn't be making these purchases right now. I just pushed those vibes down. Now I realize that it was the Holy Spirit speaking to me. I have confessed my sins to my Lord and I know He has forgiven me (it will be harder to forgive myself). I know He's in charge and will take care of us. I just got caught up in the rush of getting a good deal.

I've been feeling like I need to find more of a balance between being on the internet and taking care of my home, children, and husband. I hadn't found a real good solution so I just stopped worrying about it even though I've had this nagging feeling continue. There are so many other things besides couponing that I need and want to do. I feel behind. Of course, FlyLady would tell me that I'm not behind, to jump in where ever I am. So, that's what I'm going to attempt to do.

We have to get back on a budget. I will still be couponing but we will be eating out of the pantry and freezer for a while except for the necessesties (like milk, which we're out of). I'll be taking an inventory of everything we have and making a list of necessesties that we need. I will be spending more time with my husband after the kids are in bed instead of on the internet. I will be scrapbooking and cooking more from scratch. Cleaning my house and playing more with my children. Exercising more and attempting to watch what I eat (I say that as I sit here eating a brownie - YUM). These are all things I've been needing and wanting to do but haven't had time for because I've been spending so much time chasing the good deals.